I'm too stressed out

Waking up in the middle of the night, and my head is filled with worries, lots of worries. I know it's not a good sight for the beginning of a new year, but god, can't help it. So I decide to make a list

1) Job - I've been applying for 4 places so far, it hasn't been one week yet since the date I submitted my resume, but I already started worrying about them not contacting me, partly because I accidentally put the wrong contact number on my cover letter, and partly because I am not qualified, i.e., not PR, and not 1 or 2 year exp.

2) ECC - to be honest, I hate going back to that place. A volunteer job which pays me $20/day isn't worth. It's kind of worth for some experience to put in my resume, but other than that, the responsibility is so heavy. Not to mention there's no training or supervision. I've been back to Perth since the 4th of Jan, but I have been making excuses to myself not to be present at ECC office. This worsen the feeling inside my head, I wish I could had gone there earlier, so that there would be less work done. Well, I want to quit that role so much, but something inside my head tells me that I have responsibility with that job. Gosh, I think I have made quite a mess there. God! I think I'll make an appearance there no sooner or later, if I want to quit.

3) Driving licence - failing the test twice discourages me. All the money spent on driving lessons and booking the test went wasted, I gotta take advantage of this free time to retake the test. Wish me luck!

4) Dental appointment - I wish I had started going to the dentist earlier, so that I would have had nice straight teeth by now. The delay keeps going on and on. Appearance is important as it enhances your confidence. Now I've got cosmetic surgery for my eyes, though I am not totally happy with it, coz one eye seems to be smaller than the other, plus my crooked teeth, make me feel like I am the ugliest bitch in the world. sigh, can't help.

If no places offer me a job within the next 6 months, I guess I gotta apply for NAVITAS course, which cost me another ~$14000.

Well, here is the list of things I need to do within next week:

1) Make an appearance at ECC :(
2) Book for general cleaning at a dentist
3) Call an orthodontist
4) Book driving test
5) Call George - arrange driving lesson
6) Buy a calendar notebook


Well, everything seems a bit clearer when they are in the list.
Maybe in the middle of this year, I might move house, or should I wait till I buy a car? This apartment I am living now is TERRIBLE, literally, damn the person who designed and built it. It is a huge oven in summer.

Alrighty, time to bed.