Well, I feel so down today. The reason was that I did not remember my lines for the Chinese oral presentation and it cut short the time by more than 30 seconds (which was very important in a 4-min presentation). Very often my brain just goes blank at the most crucial moment that requires the brain to work the most: in exams, during presentations, answering an interview, etc. After years and years of schooling, I still can't get rid of this problem.
I don't remember when was the last time I felt this way. Not so long ago perhaps, but it was just a slight hinch, but the real dissappointment and sadness often came when I did not get an expected mark for a test/exam when I was in Singapore...Singapore, yes, still Singapore, 3 years have passed but the memory is still vivid. Not that I love Singapore so much that I keep saying it. It is because 2 years in Singapore were the most memorable time I have ever had, with great friends, consistency in studying, and so much fun. Australia? nothing yet. Or only when I leave Oz then I will miss it? Maybe, I don't know.
Okay, ... the hurtful part is that I keep thinking that it was my fault. What if I remembered my lines, what if ... We had 2nd chance and unfortunately, I did not realize that I missed a few lines right in the first trial. My partner is a lawyet - Sukhpal - in my opinion, his pronounciation was not so precise and he seemed to be even more nervous than me, but he made it through, at least he remembered his lines and did not skip ahead. He also said that his personal standard is very high, which made me feel even worse, just like I've helped 'pulling' his grade down.
Okay, well, on the brighter side, the presentation was only 10% and the timing is 10% of 10%, which equals 1 mark of overall final mark, so ... be optimistic. Hope that I will do well in the last test and in final exams. I am expecting a real high grade for this Unit and really really want to achieve it. (I think the unit was not extremely hard).
What about other units?
Well, no idea what to do with Finance assignment now, just got a bit of clue ... feeling like dependent on others.
Management Accounting: started getting lost for 2 chapters, need to work extra hard to catch up and most importantly: understanding what's going on. I suppose 'the lecturer' is one of the reason I don't understand the content.
Laws: doing great (I think so), loves the tutor, love the old-lecturer (Samuel), new lectures are so boring (Genga's).
Okay, typing up few lines like this really make me feel better. Okay, FOCUS ...
Zaijian!
