Vanity card?!?

Well, problems are finally over, I am glad they are, now I resume to my normal life!

Before I commence writing about the main theme of today's blog, I would like to talk/complain a little bit about my housemates, particularly the older one.

Before he moved in, he 'advertised' himself as a quiet Korean ... it turns out to be not really. Over months, I get more annoyed at his noise level, especially he talks over the phone, the whole world can hear the conversation, only if they can understand the language. Another issue was when I watch my favourite show on TV, that is the time he has 'fun' with the water tap, turns it to the maximum level and let it flush!!! (What the hell man! Don't you see that I'm trying to watch the TV, are you trying to competing with the TV on the noise level?). ANOTHER problem is about slamming door, I wish he could become more gentler with the door ... sigh, not to mention all the swearing in Korean which I happen to understand what it means.

Also he tends not to do any cleaning, apart from for their own good, the urine stain on the toilet bowl is grossed, and I have to clean it every time, WHY ME?!?. And of course need not to mention the kitchen, the paper towel that they are hiding in their room so that I can't use, and the toilet paper that he would never buy. I know he has loads of them in his room, but again, for 'own' use only.

About character, well, I would say, after the acquaintance with a few male mates, I've come to realise that some of them are really ... 'bitchy'. Ok, let's put it this way, they possess the characters that a wise and grown up man should not possess. Selfishness, stinginess, childishness, careless, ... bitchiness ... just to name a few. I'm not saying the name of those people are here ...

Alright, there are 2 Korean brothers sharing the flat with me, the older one is the one annoyed me the most, whereas the younger one seems to be more benign, harmless, consciousness (apart from all the late night work noise) and knows who he is. Now I'm getting lazy to go bitching about him, never mind, leave it there for a moment, I think my tolerance can withstand for quite some time.

Again, I don't hate anyone, I am just annoyed!

Ok, here is the main topic.

Inspired by Chuck Lorre, the creator of 'The Big Bang Theory' and 'Two and a Half Men', which turn out to be 2 of my favourite shows. If you watch the shows, then you've noticed that at the end of each episode, there is a screen which titled 'Chuck Lorre's Production ####'. And if you have the DVD or the shows in your laptop, you can pause it and read it, it's really a random thing, but turns out to be interesting and funny for me, so I told myself that I could do the similar thing, in a different way.

Well, sometimes something funny pop up in my head and I really want to write it down. Some people choose facebook or twitter, for me they're too public and some people just don't have the sense of humour and take it the wrong way, so I've decided to post it here: random short funny thought! Again, very random!!!

For instance, here are the few thoughts that came to my head in the last couple of days!

'I am funny, but only me can see it'

'Why can't people see the funnier side of me?'

'From 15 to 21, I don't feel the difference, or the transition that lead me to today.'

and some other things that I forget at this moment, will update it later.

That's it for today's blog, goodbye!!!

IDIOT!

What a stupid ass!

I already told him that the water kettle electric circuit is broken, there's something wrong with it and we should have had never used it again.

He refused to believe the cause of the electric cut-out was due to his lovely white water kettle. The decision has been made to never use it again. But just now, while I was enjoying my favourite show, Master Chef, he started making noise with the water tap, washing, preparing to cook, and somehow decide to 'recycle' the water kettle, hoping for some magic happens and the faut was not due to the water kettle.

And ... Opps!!! He did it again! The power went off, leaving me with a blank TV screen, and now I couldn't open the power board door, even with the help from my neighbour, it means no power for the rest of the night, and possibly the whole weekend man!

Tomorrow is Friday, you all know what it means, I work the whole day, it also means I have no time to go to the agent and tell them what happen.

I already made a trip there today, problem solved, before a silly guy started every thing again.

I don't know how to explain to the agent what happened, because I have asked them for help today, it incurred cost to them, making another phone call would be considered silly, they'll blame me ...!!! sighs ... But I have no choice.

I wish I could turn back in time and stop the villain from doing what he was about to do.

Sigh ... Heavy stomach...

21st birthday

Today is my 21st birthday, a big day for most of people, marking the point when you completely turn adult, legally do whatever you couldn't do before. Does it matter to me? Not really, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't go club, so it's really the same.

My day began when I woke up at 10.20, almost late to catch the train to work. Somehow I decided not to set alarm clock the night before as I thought I would have plenty of time. Working on your 21st birthday? ... Yes, I worked today. Sounds miserable, huh? But the good thing is I get pay rise after my birthday.

Then I went home, had a shower, went to supermarket, bought some chicken wings, and had dinner. Nothing special. Only got a wishing call from my mom earlier this evening, which made me even sadder I wanted to go home at that moment so badly, coz I would have a party with my family back home. I haven't spent any of birthday with my family since I was 15 - left home too early, that's why.

No party for me :) and certainly no alcohol, no cake, no candles, no friends coming over, nothing ...

I don't why people have to go big with the 21st birthday thing. To me, it's just a day marking your birth, and reminds you that in 365 days time, you'll turn 22.

Facebook got flooded with wishes from everyone though, from close friends, to not too close, to some people that I've never talked at all. Somehow they just send you the wishes as they saw a link on their facebook homepage. Oh, technology ...

Anyway, happy birthday to me, sweet 21st!!!

Get older, but still young though, so live life to the fullest, Ha!

For a moment, I thought I'm myself again

:) Just realized I have made a best decision ever (or somebody indirectly helped me to make it). It makes me realized how good or/and how bad the people around me were, and somehow it isolates me from the bad, and remain GOOD (as always, lol). Maybe it doesn't make sense to anybody, but ... yes, I'm myself again, no sin committed! hahahahwoawoawoahahahuahuahua

Desperate

Sometimes you just feel desperate, so desperate, ... for no reasons.

Oh, well, not actually no reasons, but small things keep building up, just like many single little rocks tacking on each other and become a big pile of stones. And you have to carry that, on your shoulder, alone.

Things started since I broke up with a 'so-called' bf, the one that I've never, ever, had a serious feeling with. He didn't think so, and it has become a game for me, and one day, he paused the game, and ... I ended the game. Well, I did not regret ending the game, because I wasn't enjoying the whole thing at all, and sometimes wonder why I was in that game in the first place, and now ended it in a bitter way. (Freedom for both? Hand up if you think so.)

Okay, now I'm all by myself, feeling like I'm myself again. By that, I meant I will be doing everything alone, from small to heavy work, every troubles will be shared with no one but myself, I feel like I gain independence again, but that also means I'm more stressed again.

IELTS - the requirement for graduate program and PR, I got 7.0 overall, but only 6.5 for speaking, a lack of 0.5, which then excludes me from the eligible criteria to apply for job and PR. I want to take the test again, but the cost and the risk of taking it is a bit too high for me at the moment, not to mention, no time.

Invisalign - impossible, have to change to traditional braces, and again ... financial difficulty.

Driving licence - not possible yet, it involves time and money, of course.

Self-discipline - was good for the couple of weeks of the semester, now obsessing with Scrabbles and somehow it distracts me from the work I'm committing in.

Renting - not to mention, a big burden on my shoulder.

What's bothering me the most? - Future, full of uncertainty.

I know, I gonna have the most lonely 21st b'day ever, and it's coming soon!

Cheers,

Ha.

How rude and how ignorant he is

I had my clothes washed and hang-dried on the balcony at 8.30pm last night. And it is 2.00pm today when my undried clothes were taken off the hanger, put aside on a dirty outdoor chair by a stupid, ignorant, arrogant and unconscious person. It means the clothes only had 6 hours to dry under the weak sunlight of the winter (it's 19 degrees today, btw). Here, I did not count the time from 8.30pm - 8.00am because the temperature was so low for the water to evaporate.

An idiot, who washed his clothes, which was only half full of the laundry basket, tried to take the space to dry his clothes by throwing my clothes aside without realising that only half of my clothes were still damp.

There are 7 days a week, why doesn't he choose a better day? Why must he wash his clothes when his basket was not even full? Could he even notice that somebody is drying his/her clothes outsite and wait? No, not him. Such a waste of water and electricity. He thought the water is free. Oh, whatever is free to him, he thinks that he owns it and has the right to use as much as he wants, that explains he takes shower 3 times a day while everyone in every Australian household is trying to limit their shower time in less than 10 minutes a day. Despite the uncountable times I tried to tell him to be a bit more conscious (about everything: water usage, time to take shower, cleaning and tidy rooms ...), it just doesn't work for him. It's just like I am trying to talk to a duck. The only thing that works for him is money. Yes, he thinks he has money and money could bring him anything. In VN, he spends his money like a prince, which an excuse that it is 'freebies' money from his wealthy relatives - well, just like other saigon guys I've known, money means water - you don't have to pay for the water/money - why must you save it, it is free, right? Well, I'm nobody's mother to tell anybody what to do, let it be.

I feel so pissed off, because I have to re-dry my clothes while I was not the one to take them in. I asked him to dry my clothes again, he refused to do it. Fair enough! Just feel how rude ans selfish could a person is, trying to create his own space by throwing my stuff aside. Pissed!

Finding a self-conscious housemate has never been possible... I wish I have enough money to rent a little apartment, living alone. I know it would be boring, but it's much much better than living with someones often piss you off.

Well, that's for now. I could have continue writing this entry to 10000 words, but ... stop now. Bye.

Up and down

Well, I feel so down today. The reason was that I did not remember my lines for the Chinese oral presentation and it cut short the time by more than 30 seconds (which was very important in a 4-min presentation). Very often my brain just goes blank at the most crucial moment that requires the brain to work the most: in exams, during presentations, answering an interview, etc. After years and years of schooling, I still can't get rid of this problem.

I don't remember when was the last time I felt this way. Not so long ago perhaps, but it was just a slight hinch, but the real dissappointment and sadness often came when I did not get an expected mark for a test/exam when I was in Singapore...Singapore, yes, still Singapore, 3 years have passed but the memory is still vivid. Not that I love Singapore so much that I keep saying it. It is because 2 years in Singapore were the most memorable time I have ever had, with great friends, consistency in studying, and so much fun. Australia? nothing yet. Or only when I leave Oz then I will miss it? Maybe, I don't know.

Okay, ... the hurtful part is that I keep thinking that it was my fault. What if I remembered my lines, what if ... We had 2nd chance and unfortunately, I did not realize that I missed a few lines right in the first trial. My partner is a lawyet - Sukhpal - in my opinion, his pronounciation was not so precise and he seemed to be even more nervous than me, but he made it through, at least he remembered his lines and did not skip ahead. He also said that his personal standard is very high, which made me feel even worse, just like I've helped 'pulling' his grade down.

Okay, well, on the brighter side, the presentation was only 10% and the timing is 10% of 10%, which equals 1 mark of overall final mark, so ... be optimistic. Hope that I will do well in the last test and in final exams. I am expecting a real high grade for this Unit and really really want to achieve it. (I think the unit was not extremely hard).

What about other units?
Well, no idea what to do with Finance assignment now, just got a bit of clue ... feeling like dependent on others.
Management Accounting: started getting lost for 2 chapters, need to work extra hard to catch up and most importantly: understanding what's going on. I suppose 'the lecturer' is one of the reason I don't understand the content.
Laws: doing great (I think so), loves the tutor, love the old-lecturer (Samuel), new lectures are so boring (Genga's).

Okay, typing up few lines like this really make me feel better. Okay, FOCUS ...

Zaijian!